I've been here a long time, however, last year I had a bit of a meltdown and deleted all of my accounts in everything kink. To be honest, a break was good and now I am coming back and the biggest reason is that this is an amazing community!
I, like many of you, have a partner who I love dearly, but who doesn't enjoy my kinks. It's been that way for years, and I toyed with cheating for want of a session but felt that would be wrong. So, I live vicariously through the experiences of others. Am I okay with that? I guess I am, now.
I once felt I would go mad, but now, I am resigned to the fact that ship has sailed - and hell the clean-up's a bitch anyway!
Seriously, I still lush after getting totally messy, I still love chatting to chums on here for role-play and, I've just reposted some of my deleted stories - I may even write more...
I guess I wanted to say, thanks for being there. I may not know your real names, I know I will never meet you, but you are all amazing and your support, through the forums, through messages and calls has kept me going.
So, if you are feeling a bit shit, feel free to message me. I may not have all the answers, but, I've been there and come out the other side!
I'm sorry that has been your experience. It seems to be a recurring theme here. It just sucks that so many people are roped into relationships where there are things keeping one of both parties from fully enjoying the things they love in life.
Welcome back, I hope that you can find some way to enjoy this in your life that keeps love and trust in your relationship as well.